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(i'm taking a break from heavy-editing coven!thor to write this, and just wanted to also tell you that i finished coven!cap and posted chapter 1 on my tumblr. i also posted the edited version of chapter 1 of coven!thor there too.)

but anyway, i was just going through some old posts on this blog and... man. it's always kind of weird to see how different you were as a person in the past, but when i look at posts from 2012 and 2011 it's kind of hard to believe that that was me just a few years ago? i occupy a completely different mental space than 2011!me did. can you believe that there was a time in my life that constantly thinking about a fictional work was so alien to me that i constantly talked about it? that's just, like, what i do now. this is completely barring the fact that i wasn't writing back then. and if 2012!me could see my current au her head would be spinning (no hp??? who the fuck is cuhel???). like really.

on the other hand, it seems like i was a lot more emotional back then, but really i just talked about it more because it was right i'd opened up. i'm totally just as emotional now, but it's for different stuff ( i got a stomach ache when they announced that sam wilson was becoming captain america because i was so excited). also i was totally obsessed with inception. like man apparently that movie was on my mind for like a month straight. nowadays i tend to relate the things i see to some part of my au and spend more time thinking about that... of course, again, in 2011 there wasn't really an au anyway, so

but man, this is surreal i'm gonna go back to doing that and editing, because i'd really like to finish this chapter, like, today.

edit - i'm back again because i made an amazing discovery while reading these: this is back when i still identified as straight. holy frick frack... it feels so long ago, especially because i'm not allosexual or alloromantic at all anymore (i'm very nearly not cis either), but i look at a post from three years ago where i talked about having babies... jesus who the hell is that. 2011 was also my brief stint as a christian before i a) went (agnostic) atheist to deal with my thanatophobia and b) waaaaay before i slwoly shifted back into theism. damn i've changed a lot.

update 8/6/14

hello! so here's the stuff

general: i got a job working for my parents watching my nephew while they and my sisters go to work. i get $70 a week so i'm totally into it. i saw dawn of the planet of the apes, maleficent, godzilla again, and guardians of the galaxy, all of which i enjoyed. i also saw the legend of hercules technically, but hell i wasn't paying attention (i read the summary i wrote for my spiderman fic). i watch the amazing spiderman 2 at home and i liked that just as much as i thought, which was a lot even though it was a hot mess. that's about it.

so au stuff

mainstream: so a little while ago i edited pirates of the caribbean and dead men's chest, which made me want to write at world's end, BUT i got weird and rearranged all of my writing into three parts: superhero stuff, other stuff on earth, and then off earth stuff. doing it all chronologically doesn't work because there are a shit ton of stories i have that don't have definitive times or take place in different universes where it kind of doesn't count. by doing it this way it's easier for me to plan and stay on track, especially because all of the superhero stuff is connected. there's not really anything important to see in the tag.
coven and cotn: there's more meta in the tag regarding bucky in the winter soldier, and i wrote chapter 2 of coven!cap. i haven't touched cotn in a while
lego story: i totally rethought how the sequel will go, because what i was going for was too dark for this uni. i took the original ideas and pushed them to the mainstream for agents of shield.

i haven't updated darkvengers in three months but hey

so there that is. i haven't been up to much.