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this is kind of a reply to myself?? to some of my posts in the past

remember this?

i don't really understand why i've slowed down watching game of thrones but the further i get into the series the worse my apprehension got. like, when  i first started i watched the first episode and half of the second on the same day. i'm now on the 6th (?) episode and i've only seen half of it. and that was a week ago.

yeah well, it got worse. i've actually straight up quit the show because i can't take it anymore. i was almost in tears over a scene between joffrey and sansa and that was the final straw. i convinced myself to do one more to end on a better note but i'm probably not going back into it unless i decide to read the books or have a change of hearts. after seven episodes too.

so, i figured this out. I have a tendency to avoid the things that really upset me. whether it's because they make me miserable or they remind me of a time in my life i'd rather forget. game of thrones falls into the former category, along with the last two thg books and the last two modern warfare games. game of thrones was an interesting one in that i started avoiding it before i even knew that it would upset me, and stopped before it could. in a turn of events, i bought the book and i have started reading it. hopefully that goes better.

in other news, i saw the dark knight rises last wednesday and i loved it. when i came out of the theatre i was positive that, and i quote, 'i'll watch this as much as i watch the dark knight when it comes out!'. looking back, that probably won't happen. i mean, i loved the movie a lot and i'm still thinking about it almost a week on but i'm positive that i won't watch it as much as the dark knight. by the same token, i'm not gonna not watch it except as background light when i sleep like i do with batman begins.

i bought the scripts for the dark knight trilogy back in october and i read them, as you do. after that i watched batman begins again. let me tell you, it was a completely different experience. i LOVED it. i couldn't even watch it in one sitting the first time and then the last time i was upset because i had to stop! it's crazy.

in other other news: i finally got around to watching the original modern warfare. it was good. i didn't like it as much as mw3 or black ops, which i've also watched again recently. i didn't cry during either, surprisingly

 eh i don't like as much as i used to. i didn't even finish it last time around. it just doesn't hold me the way it used to. i don't think it's bad but i don't know when i'll come back to it.

that's about it. goodnight uwu

mood: eh
watching: nostalgia chick, showgirls