i missed the first day of BEDA, but i also have nothing to write about
so... watch uncharted with me? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bolIgyHht3k

mood: nothing special
listening to: uncharted 3

okay internet, we need to have a talk about barbie

but first an announcment:

• i'm doing BEDA on my pokemon blog next month. i think i will most likely end up doing BLODA on this blog, since i don't know if i'll be able to handle blogging twice everyday 

okay lets get on with this.

• i highly doubt that barbie i the reason that so many girls have low self esteem and want to attain impossible figures. it makes sense on paper, but think about it. barbie is, first and foremost, a toy. she's made of plastic. also, there's the fact that there are pressures from the media to look like what's desirable, like the ladies in the magazines. and guess who's not in the magazines. of course there's probably people out there who do want the look like barbie, but don't blame everyone's low self-esteem on a doll. or at least think about it. 
• barbie doesn't come in pink packaging and lots of pink (not only pink, but lots of pink) clothes because she's meant for girls. this is something called characterization. over the years mattel has turned barbie from just a fashion doll into full fledged character. she has a whole family, likes and dislikes, she even has an entire name. so it makes sense that barbie would have a favorite color right? and guess what that color is? pink. 
• and probably the most important thing, barbie is not a slut, nor is she dumb. the movies have established that. for one, being a slut isn't even such a bad thing, let alone something that you call a cartoon character. also 'slutty' isn't a style of dress, it's a lifestyle choice (for lack of better word). and to top that off, barbie doesn't dress in what is traditionally thought of as 'slutty'. a regular barbie's style is probably best described as feminine, and the clothes are not overtly revealing. and there isn't really any evidence to prove that barbie is 'dumb'. there's the whole 'math is hard' thing, but not everyone is good at math, you know? it's not a sign of stupidity. besides, barbie has had what seems like a hundred jobs, which means she's qualified for every one. 

sorry for the rant, but i had to get that off my chest. it bothers me when people blame barbie for everything. also, the last one goes ofo the bratz as well.

mood: happy, actually
listening to: Charlie Brown, Coldplay

another hp post

so my friend beth's harry potter blog got me thinking about something.

you know how snape and lily have the same patronus? well, i was thinking that the whole patronus thing had something to do with how with how he and james both loved her in different ways (because james has a simliar patronus to lily as well).

like, snape was more infatuated with her than anything, so he had the same exact patronus as her. james had time to be with her and let his love, and himself, mature into something more, so he has a stag, which symbolises that he was her partner rather than just some one fawning over her. that's just speculation, of course.

but yeah, that's all for today. i had to get that out of my head.

mood: i don't really know?
listening to: Starry Eyed (Monsieur Adi remix)- Ellie Goulding

just a reminder that the pokemon blog is here.

big accomplishment for me: since the last time i wrote here i've watched two movies the same night i started them! yay

but yeah. it slowly dawned on me that i had never seen Prisoner of Azkaban, as well as Order of the Pheonix (though i knew i hadn't seen that one). i actually got around to watching them  a week or two ago. no tears, surprisingly.
in other news: i still haven't finished OoTP, despite seeing the movie and knowing that i most likely won't cry at the end. i still don't feel ready to take that leap right now.

sorry for the short update post. i was preparing to write a long post about barbies and what not but i'm not ready to put myself in that mood either.

mood: in-diff-er-ent
listening to: clifford

another important announcement!

i've created a separate blog for my pokemon blog, so that if i decide to keep it going after school i'll still have my personal.
the blog will still be called pikablocks and you can go follow it here. this url is changing back to scatterblox. sorry about all the moving!

sometimes i hate not being eloquent, because there are so many things i could talk about, but no. it makes me upset.
so today, i'm gonna talk about Harry Potter, because i can't give coherent thoughts on any of the important issues at hand that don't involve wizards.

specifically, i want to talk about Cho and some thing that's bothering me. i've recently wondered why the book treats all girls as something to be decoded, instead of treating all people as immensely complicated human beings. i've already taken a step back and realised that, of course, the book is told from Harry's point of view. and that's probably how he feels about the situation. even so, it still irks me. it gnaws at me the same way Harry's attitude does, despite it being pointed out to me that he was probably suffering PTSD. i can't let it go. but at the same time, i can't expect a 15 year old boy to see women (and really, everybody) as the complex creatures that they are when he's got the mentality of, well... a 15 year old. which is another thing that bothers me. i knew what i was getting into when i sat down to read a tome about Harry Potter in a constant bad mood. i knew. and yet i can't help but be annoyed. and then i feel bad because i expect too much.

if you've stayed this long, thanks for reading yet another HP rant. i'll try to find something else to talk about next time.

listening to: television
mood: my wrists hurt (i know.)

welp

i apologize in advanced if this post is badly written, because i am not eloquent which you probably know by now).

i finished watching Deathly Hallows part 2 about an hour ago, and i've started thinking about a few things. namely 1) how much my life has changed since i really got back into HP and 2) how becoming reattached to these characters in such a short amount of time may have torn my heart into pieces.

i've been an HP fan since i was 13 or so, and i've gone in and out of the fandom a few times since then. i wasn't much of a potterhead back then, and i didn't really get a lot of things*. i didn't really get into it hardcore until last year when i got into tumblr. and then i dove in head first. honestly, i'm really glad that it's been that way because i have so many people to talk to now, on top of gaining a connection to the characters.** and it's changed me in a good way, i think. ever since i saw DH part 2, i've been a lot more open about my emotions, mostly when it comes to crying. it feels good to be in fandom.

but then there's the downside (sort of). if my archive is anything to go by, i dived into the fandom around june, which is a month before DH part 2 came out. in the course of a month or maybe a  month and a half, i get totally invested in a cast of characters who were either going to die or get extremely close. that's going pretty hard on yourself imo. even without having grown up with HP like other have***, i still felt like i lost a big part of my family. i suffered from post-potter depression and i wasn't even aware of it. to gain all of those things in the course of a month, just to see most of it get taken a way in 2.5 hours. it hurt really bad. so while i'm really grateful for getting into HP again, maybe i should have done it so fast.

but then again, maybe it was best this way...

mood: good, surprisingly
listening to: nick jr (it's on commercial)

* i didn't get dressing up for premieres or midnight showings. oddly enough, i totally got fanfic...
** i'm sure most potterheads know that feeling, when the trio or whoever you love become your friends in the absence of tangible people.
*** i was 13 in 2004/5 and read them in the course of my 8th grade year. i didn't see any of the films in theaters until HBP.