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this is kind of a reply to myself?? to some of my posts in the past

remember this?

i don't really understand why i've slowed down watching game of thrones but the further i get into the series the worse my apprehension got. like, when  i first started i watched the first episode and half of the second on the same day. i'm now on the 6th (?) episode and i've only seen half of it. and that was a week ago.

yeah well, it got worse. i've actually straight up quit the show because i can't take it anymore. i was almost in tears over a scene between joffrey and sansa and that was the final straw. i convinced myself to do one more to end on a better note but i'm probably not going back into it unless i decide to read the books or have a change of hearts. after seven episodes too.

so, i figured this out. I have a tendency to avoid the things that really upset me. whether it's because they make me miserable or they remind me of a time in my life i'd rather forget. game of thrones falls into the former category, along with the last two thg books and the last two modern warfare games. game of thrones was an interesting one in that i started avoiding it before i even knew that it would upset me, and stopped before it could. in a turn of events, i bought the book and i have started reading it. hopefully that goes better.

in other news, i saw the dark knight rises last wednesday and i loved it. when i came out of the theatre i was positive that, and i quote, 'i'll watch this as much as i watch the dark knight when it comes out!'. looking back, that probably won't happen. i mean, i loved the movie a lot and i'm still thinking about it almost a week on but i'm positive that i won't watch it as much as the dark knight. by the same token, i'm not gonna not watch it except as background light when i sleep like i do with batman begins.

i bought the scripts for the dark knight trilogy back in october and i read them, as you do. after that i watched batman begins again. let me tell you, it was a completely different experience. i LOVED it. i couldn't even watch it in one sitting the first time and then the last time i was upset because i had to stop! it's crazy.

in other other news: i finally got around to watching the original modern warfare. it was good. i didn't like it as much as mw3 or black ops, which i've also watched again recently. i didn't cry during either, surprisingly

 eh i don't like as much as i used to. i didn't even finish it last time around. it just doesn't hold me the way it used to. i don't think it's bad but i don't know when i'll come back to it.

that's about it. goodnight uwu

mood: eh
watching: nostalgia chick, showgirls

i need to talk about something here because i've talked about it enough on my tumblr and i wanna give them a break.

to preface it, though, read this and this.

okay so!!

for one, bane never break into a woman's apartment and borderline sexually assault her. not in the comics and not in the nolan movie either. but that happens, as a plot device. and that's it. the rest of the time, he's written in character, and very well. and it doesn't romanticize him either, which is nice. the scenes between him and kim seems so out of place within the rest of the story. 

like, he says he wants to "own" her mind and body. he never gives a reason why. it's not like with batman, where he needed to make him disappear and never come back. we're given no reason as to why he insists on driving her crazy, instead of, you know, courting her? yes, i know, he's brutal, but it's out of character! there are other ways to go about it. and even worse, it's presented as something to be arousing. but i've already talked about this

now i'd except this if, a) it was au and b) if those scenes were meant to be true psychological torture, and not kink specific smut. but that's what it is.

it's interesting that the framing device ended up so much better than the sex scenes.

sorry about the rant but i needed to talk about that more.

you can find the story here: http://tomhardysswag.tumblr.com/tagged/the+chronicles

mood: hm

listening to: nostalgia chick- men in black

okay here's some updates of my life

• it been exactly a month since i had stopped watching mw 3 and i've only watched 3 more levels
• i never got back to game of thrones
• i still haven't read the last two books in the hunger games series
• i haven't finished the harry potter book i'm on
• i'm doing NaNoWriMo

so there's that. i'm not doing much right now but i am happy so it's alright

i know i haven't posted in a while so here's a link to watch azumanga daioh
http://www.animefreak.tv/watch/azumanga-daioh-english-dubbed-online-free
it's very good

dumb

do you know that i started modern warfare 3? like, for real this time. but i got to level 6? or so and i stopped because i didn't like the way it was making me feel. like, i love call of duty a lot, but it has a tendency to make me feel miserable. and not just during the game, after it ends too.

okay here's a comparison: deathly hallows part 2 makes me miserable. like i actually cry and all the works. BUT!! it has an ending that makes me really happy, so it's okay. of the four call of duty games i've seen, three of the leave me worse off then i started, and one didn't really make me feel anything (the first modern warfare). black ops is the worst offender, but that's because i'm so attached to the main character.

but yeah i still haven't finished it, and i thing i might abandon it for a game that makes me less sad, like silent hill

mood: okay
listening to: joseph birdsong

some updates

• i tried to start modern warfare 3 again and i just couldn't
• i want to see the dark knight rises again, because i want to watch the dark knight sometime soon and i'm afraid i won't want to see it again after that
• i finished the main story of endless ocean 2
• i also need to watch batman begins again. and in one sitting this time

that's about it. i haven't made a list like that in a while!

i start school next thursday so maybe i'll start making more posts here? let's hope so.

mood: hey
watching: conan

hm

remember this?

i don't really understand why i've slowed down watching game of thrones but the further i get into the series the worse my apprehension got. like, when  i first started i watched the first episode and half of the second on the same day. i'm now on the 6th (?) episode and i've only seen half of it. and that was a week ago.

yeah well, it got worse. i've actually straight up quit the show because i can't take it anymore. i was almost in tears over a scene between joffrey and sansa and that was the final straw. i convinced myself to do one more to end on a better note but i'm probably not going back into it unless i decide to read the books or have a change of hearts. after seven episodes too.

in other news, i saw the dark knight rises last wednesday and i loved it. when i came out of the theatre i was positive that, and i quote, 'i'll watch this as much as i watch the dark knight when it comes out!'. looking back, that probably won't happen. i mean, i loved the movie a lot and i'm still thinking about it almost a week on but i'm positive that i won't watch it as much as the dark knight. by the same token, i'm not gonna not watch it except as background light when i sleep like i do with batman begins.

in other other news: i finally got around to watching the original modern warfare. it was good. i didn't like it as much as mw3 or black ops, which i've also watched again recently. i didn't cry during either, surprisingly

mood: good
watching: mythbusters

note: i've started reading blogging the hunger games on zach little's blog so here's a link to that