whoa

i haven't written a real post since february so i think it's time for an update

since feburary i've:

 - i finished two fics. two full length fics. the last time i was here i was telling you all about how i'd started my batman begins fic two months prior. well, not only did i finish that fic about a month after, i started tdkr the last week in march and finished it in just over a month. right now i'm editing tdkr (which is requiring a LOT of rewrites and inserts) and i'd started a second round of editing on batman begins before i got caught up in tdkr and another project which i'll mention below. i've also written a small selections of tdk stuff because there isn't enough change worth writing a whole story. however, that might change a bit.

i think it's worth mentioning that i wrote tdkr very quickly compared, not just to batman begins but also to the unfinished thg fic. last november, when i did nano, in the thirty day period i managed to write 31,684 words. batman begins took four months and had just over 38,000 words i think. i finished tdkr in a month and it had about 58,000 words. 58,000. that's crazy.

 - i started an epic fantasy story

some background on this: in the days leading up to nano (you know, because i decided to nano, like, a week before it started) i did some practice writing to get myself into the groove, since i hadn't written creatively since my sophomore or junior year of high school. along with what would become the first chapter of batman begins, i decided to fill in the blanks of game of thrones and write the scene where the stark kids name the direwolf pups. this. i put the file on my computer a few days after i wrote it and just kind of left it until i started batman begins, which is when i decided to use it as an ongoing background project to keep my mind and hands busy when i'd gotten blocked by batman, and to keep my mind from wandering to other things, because thinking ahead (or in the case of harry potter, behind) can get me overwhelmed.

ultimately, this story has gone through a lot of changes, most of which stem from the big decision to try to remove it from game of thrones as much as i can. this resulted in, among other things:

•  me renaming all the characters, locations, and a few other things, in elvish (quenya for the common tongue and sindarin for valyrian)
• removing adults as viewpoint characters (to exemplify that this is no longer game of thrones, the pov chars are all chars who are not, or will stop, playing the game of thrones. adults will come in later.)
• at least three rewrites before i'd even finished the fifth chapter. the biggest one was the decision to have taron not fall from the tower, whereas bran did, and to have aisto run away, whereas jon went to take the black.
• etc...

that fic is currently at 25,797 words, and i've stopped because i got block

 - i bet you're all (not) wondering about the thg fic.

well, for starters, it's definitely a thg fic again. secondly, i'm tying it in with the epic fantasy story. that's barely been started so

 - i've been working on other stuff but it's all short fiction i've got to keep my hands busy since i've hit that wall in prophs. i've started outlining thor, which is a step towards the avengers, and i've almost completely laid out harry potter and the sorcerer's stone for nano this november.

and that's pretty much it! sorry for not being around :(

mood: ?
listening to: Hurricane - MS MR (Twin Shadow remix)

frankie still wants to read and review the thing but i'm currently in the middle of editing a fic and i haven't read anything  so idk
if i do it'll be on my other blog so
we'll see

i made a post over on my other blog, if you could go check it out it would help me a lot

edit: this was in my drafts so i'm posting it

i was going through my archives and i found this:

2. Inception. i'm starting to think that it's a real thing, as crazy as that sounds.* i've only watched the movie once, and that was March 17th, almost a month ago. i'm still thinking about that movie everyday, almost all the time. i've tweeted about it more than once in the last few days. it's kinda freaking me out. i think about movies a lot, but hardly ever like this. Harry Potter is the only other thing that dwells on in my mind for this long. i'm just gonna assume that this is a sign of a great movie and move on to the next topic, which is

okay so this is just really funny to me. in april of last year i couldn't understand the concept of a movie being so good that you can't stop thinking about it. that, in short, means that this was written before i considered myself a part of any fandoms. how crazy is that?

like, this kind of thing is such an integral part of my life that it's like nothing to me now. looking at how much i've changed in just the last year is so fascinating to me because i can't believe that's me. crazy.

hm

first thing's first, thing's that have happened since last time:

• i started back at school. nothing interesting there really.
• i haven't touched my batman fic in a week
• i'm giving up my nano story for something different (more on that below)

some other thing

1. i finished blogging twilight and the hunger games started harry pottered, and now i want to do a thing where i read a thing and then blog about it. of course i can't do that because a) i'm not reading anything at the moment and b) if i was would i post consistently/finish said thing? who knows. i could have done a thing where i watched the phase one MCU movies and blogged about those but we just finished the last of them. maybe someday i'll do a thing.

other other thing:

i'm taking creative writing this semester and my professor opened my eyes to something that kind of changed everything w/r/t my au. basically, he said that he sees people who write a lot of fanfiction sometimes get stuck in a rut where they only write fic and never move into writing original fiction. now, so far i've written approx. 1 of the stories in my au but i noticed right away that i was setting myself up for that kind of situation, so i've been busy brainstorming ways to re-appropriate some of my stories.
among those is the thg fic i wrote for nano. like, i'm keeping it, because i like to read it, but the story itself isn't canon in that universe anymore. it's kind of neat, but every time i remember that i'm no longer constrained by the mechanics of the hunger games universe i get overwhelmed.
this fic isn't the only one i'm changing, but it's the most recent drop i've made, and probably the most exciting (something i might elaborate on sometime in the future idk).

so that's all for now. maybe i'll try to post a bit more this year? (no promises)

mood: fine
listening to: lover - devendra banhart

i think i have a few things to talk about on here

first off, somethings you've missed

• idk why i never mentioned it but i didn't hit the word limit for nanowrimo. i was at 31,684 at the end of november and right now it's a bit over 35,000. i might have hit it after the fact but i ran into a roadblock when my story went completely off the rails from the original vision, mostly because i killed off peeta. also, his death didn't have the weight it should have. so i ended up having to go into revisions immediately to fix it. protip: to avoid doing this, make an outline, because when i started this i only had a general description of the events of the game i wrote out (world building stuff, idk) and a ranking of who placed where. and of course that might change because nothing is concrete, but it'll still be really helpful.
• i started my batman begins fic the week of christmas (don't worry, i have the script guiding me). honestly i didn't think i'd be doing this one for a long time, but the more i read the script i realized that i could totally do it and that i could fix shaky fight scenes down the line. i've only just passed 10,000 words so it's not very far along, but it's going good.
• i'm rereading blogging twilight, partially because it's good and partially because i'm setting up for what i'm gonna write once i finish thg and batman begins, and twilight is on the list. in the end, i'm probably going to end up having to reread the actual book (or books *shudder*), but i'm holding off as long as i can.
• i got an xbox 360 for christmas!!! i'm not gonna be playing call of duty anytime soon (read: ever, probably). but i do have arkham asylum and i already finished the first year of lego harry potter. i've also started fallout: new vegas, which is going well, i guess (i haven't even left town yet)
• i got tdkr on dvd and i've re-watched it already. it's still very good but it was interesting to watch it with all of the flaws having been pointed out (particularly the pacing and a few plot holes).
• i currently own all of the marvel superhero movies that i care to own at the moment. i've also seen iron man 2, but i've already reviewed that on my tumblr, so i won't talk about it here
• game informer did a list of their top 50 games of 2012 and every accolade for mass effect was accompanied by a picture of the female commander shepard. how awesome is that? especially considering that she was never featured in promo art until mass effect 3. i'm so happy about that. 
• black ops 2 placed on the list, and got, like, number 4 on one of the editor's lists too, so that's cool. they got number one villian as well. i'm mostly happy about this because this is the best one in a while (most say since the first modern warfare, i say since the first black ops, but what do i know) and i'm glad people are recognizing the way treyarch is trying to change the franchise ad make it better.

i think that's everything that's happened in the last month or so. isn't that fun?

mood: yay
listening to: a daft punk song with a really long name. it's number 10 on the album Alive 2007. have fun with that.

blah

this is kind of a reply to myself?? to some of my posts in the past

remember this?

i don't really understand why i've slowed down watching game of thrones but the further i get into the series the worse my apprehension got. like, when  i first started i watched the first episode and half of the second on the same day. i'm now on the 6th (?) episode and i've only seen half of it. and that was a week ago.

yeah well, it got worse. i've actually straight up quit the show because i can't take it anymore. i was almost in tears over a scene between joffrey and sansa and that was the final straw. i convinced myself to do one more to end on a better note but i'm probably not going back into it unless i decide to read the books or have a change of hearts. after seven episodes too.

so, i figured this out. I have a tendency to avoid the things that really upset me. whether it's because they make me miserable or they remind me of a time in my life i'd rather forget. game of thrones falls into the former category, along with the last two thg books and the last two modern warfare games. game of thrones was an interesting one in that i started avoiding it before i even knew that it would upset me, and stopped before it could. in a turn of events, i bought the book and i have started reading it. hopefully that goes better.

in other news, i saw the dark knight rises last wednesday and i loved it. when i came out of the theatre i was positive that, and i quote, 'i'll watch this as much as i watch the dark knight when it comes out!'. looking back, that probably won't happen. i mean, i loved the movie a lot and i'm still thinking about it almost a week on but i'm positive that i won't watch it as much as the dark knight. by the same token, i'm not gonna not watch it except as background light when i sleep like i do with batman begins.

i bought the scripts for the dark knight trilogy back in october and i read them, as you do. after that i watched batman begins again. let me tell you, it was a completely different experience. i LOVED it. i couldn't even watch it in one sitting the first time and then the last time i was upset because i had to stop! it's crazy.

in other other news: i finally got around to watching the original modern warfare. it was good. i didn't like it as much as mw3 or black ops, which i've also watched again recently. i didn't cry during either, surprisingly

 eh i don't like as much as i used to. i didn't even finish it last time around. it just doesn't hold me the way it used to. i don't think it's bad but i don't know when i'll come back to it.

that's about it. goodnight uwu

mood: eh
watching: nostalgia chick, showgirls